Monday, September 27, 2010

WRITER


Being a writer wasn’t easy..

All you have to do is to supply all necessary information the reader want and need to know.

You should be ready with the criticism you will take amongst the reader. Always remember that you are not writing not only for your satisfaction but as well it is intended to the readers whom you caught their attentions just to read each lines. readers are fault finder. They are really are... see the mistake i make???

yes, there is.. it's your way to find out which part of my line it....



Monday, June 28, 2010

IT'S EASIER THAN DONE





Tell me often that you love me through your talk,your actions and your gestures. Don’t assume that I know it. I may show signs of embarrassment and even deny that I need it-But don’t believe it, do it anyway.

Compliment me often for jobs well done and don’t downgrade but reassure me when I fail. Don’t take the many things I do for you for granted. Positive reinforcement and appreciation works toward making sure I repeat them.

Let me know when you feel low or lonely or misunderstood. It will make me stronger to know I have the power to comfort you. Feelings,verbalized, can be destructive. Remember, though I love you, I still can’t always read your mind.

Express joyous thoughts and feelings. They bring vitality to our relationship. It’s wonderful to celebrate non birthdays, personal valentine’s days. Give gifts of love without reason and hear you verbalize your happiness.

When you respond to me so I feel special, it will make up for all those who, during the day, have passed me up without seeing me.

Don’t invalidate my being by telling me that what I see or feel is insignificant or not real. If I see and feel it-for me- it’s my experience and therefore important and real!

Listen to me without judgment or preconception. Being heard, like being seen, is vital. If you truly see me and hear me as I am at the moment it is continued affirmation of my being as we help each other to change.

Touch me. Hold me. Hug me. Kiss me. My physical self is revitalized by loving nonverbal communication.

Respect my silences. Alternatives for my problems, creativity, and my spiritual needs are most often realized in moments of SILENCE.

Let others know you value me.

...then you’re gonna make me continue fall in love with you everyday...

Saturday, April 24, 2010

This is for the broken hearted.



I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them.

That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different.



They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going.

Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay.

So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…

HIDDEN MEANINGS OF KISS



Learn the wonderful language of kiss. Like subtle body language, kisses, and their placement also carry different meaning. Get educated on the subject of kiss by knowing its subtle message that it carries.


Kiss on the hand - I adore you.

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Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.

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Kiss on the neck - I want you.

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Kiss on the lips - I love you.

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Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.

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Kiss on the nose - Let's get silly.

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Kiss anywhere else - You're the best.

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Saturday, April 3, 2010

I WANT TO LET YOU GO


i keep telling myself i'm letting you go....but i can't....

what i want is for me to let go.... to let you go....thinking of it now makes me wanna cry and i can feel the pain in my heart....i guess i'm just prolonging it to keep me from the heartaches...but i'm such a fool that i can evade it....

and i guess telling it over and over will eventually make me let you go....


....fade out....


BEHIND THE MASK


Everyone I know seem to have their happily ever after and I am happy for them, I truly am; but I can't hide the fact that when I go home and face the four walls of my room, sadness fills me in. I envy their happiness, their faces radiate the joy of loving and being loved back.....I see them and how I wish I would someday be like them. Everybody seem to get everything they needed except for me....everybody moves on, and I am still here wallowing in pain. I do my best to stay positive but when you see that everyone around you are happily inlove, you can't help but pity yourself. And the most depressing thing is that everbody wants to go home, I am trying to look like I am excited about it but who am I kidding? I may fool them but I know deep inside that I am lying because the truth is....I am so scared to go home.....scared to see that the people who hurt me are so happy and I am not......that even if they did what everbody regarded as morally wrong, at the end they are really happy which made them actually right. As I imagine myself going back home, I could vividly see and feel how scared I am, and I don't trust myself that I would do the right thing if I were to face reality. I just hope that someday, I could let everything go and that I would be brave enough to face my fears so that someday I could also have my happily ever after.

HE WHO HAS TOUCHED MY LIFE

Here's to you, my friend. The friend who has completely touched my life.Both in a bad way.. and kinda good way. The friend who has been there, and then wasn't there. Ever since I wanted you to like me too. But then you dropped out of nowhere.. but into my life again.

I really like you and, it hurts to know that you don't feel the same way about me. I've been there for you. Even when you decided to walk out of my life one day. I tell you that I like you.. and you completely freak out.

Who do I like? You or your younger self. That's a hard question. And I may not really know the answer.

But, I think that I love you. All of you. That boy that I called my friend. Who walked out of my life.. didn't bother to tell me where he was going. The boy that I cried over for many months. Wondering what could've happened to you.. and then finding out that you might be dead. But then I also like the boy who I have come to know. The one I couldn't wait for a text message from. Staying up to 12,. just to hear your voice. You tell me that you miss me, and that you've thought about me all the time.. but then we fight and you say pretty mean things.

I'm not going to be the girl who waits around forever.. It sucks to think this and, even type this out. But one day, you'll wake and realize what you had. By then I will have moved on.

I will get over you.. one day. I want so much just to forget you. To look at you as a stranger that has never seen your face before. Until then, all I can do is hold on to this heart ache til it slips away.

So here's to you my friend. No need to pray for forgiveness. I'm gone.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

VICARIOUS LEARNING OF EXPERIENCE

Vicarious Learning of Experience

Daryl G. Glori

Lot of opportunities arises when I start looking for a company for my on-the-job training. Many opportunities are laid down; the problem is in which organization am I fitted and where am I to have an essential experience about the nature of the work in the future that will contribute to my knowledge and skills.

Once I stepped in the gate of the company, I said to myself “Sige, dito na ako! Andito na eh! Wala ng atrasan ‘to…” Coca-Cola Bottlers Philippines. A part of me was saying “No!” and there is still another option to pick, at least with a settlement. With my choice, no arrangements at all, but certainly, it wasn’t a really bad selection. It is a big corporation. Isn’t it?

First day, I said it was boring. I didn’t like the job and had a thought that I can’t survive in this kind of career. Filing… papers… filing… 201 cabinets… another filing… I’m sick and tired of it. Then the only persons I am talking to are my co-OJT in the department and my immediate supervisor; the rest, they were busy chit-chatting and eating in every shatter of their work.

They say that filing of documents is the usual the OJTs were doing at their first week. It is precisely true. As days passed by, greater tasks were assigned especially to me. They gave me an opportunity to be familiarized with such terminologies, background profile of the company and other necessary informations about the nature and descriptions of their work as an HR staffs when I assist the On-Boarding Session for a newly batch of Tigers (termed to the newly hired employees) of Account Developers. I was also given the chance to join them in their Plant Tour together with the Quality Assurance Manager, who assumes that I am a new HR Assistant in the plant.

During the Plant Tour, I had a talk with one of the ADs. All day long, they really thought that I am one of the HR employees around. Part of me was pleased especially every time they attend me as “Ma’am” and greet me with enthusiasm smile. I am so much awaiting of what will happen next as days, months will pass…

There comes a time that my co-OJT in the department decided to seize the opportunity in the other firm. I can’t blame him for such act. Of course, better chance; for every hour of his work will be paid off; who can resist to that? Besides, I can feel his boredom as when I’m with him. I can’t stop him. It was reasonable to say “I won’t be happy if I don’t like the job!”

I was gloomy by that time. I wanted to be destined in the Material Department where two of my friends are assigned. But I decided not to and took the challenge of being alone with the job I don’t know if I can do it by myself. Being left alone with my so-called “mean girls” of the HR Department.

I have to take big adjustments like needing to cope with the culture and the way I should interact with the employees. But I am proud to say that I am good at it. It goes easy for me. Furthermore, I am stating to like all the employees and start to hate my immediate supervisor because of his attitude and unprofessional habits, because of it; he was suspended for several weeks.

The sudden suspension of the said person opens more door for me to love his work. I am doing his job which is very challenging for me most especially everytime employees were asking where their “Sir” is. Thanks to my before so-called “mean girls” now my “angels” who taught me a lot of things and supported me all along my work. I performed well in every interaction I made. A very nice feeling arises when they say I am better than the suspended one in all ways, predominantly on the things to put aside and the files to attach with. I even heard them saying I might replace him in his position. It was a great honor for me to hear with the intention of their wordings.

When the suspended one came back and begins to do his job, I feel intimidated as well as felt pity for him. He is always been the talk of the people and the meeting. He had to adjust on my work and always been compared to me. There comes a time he asked me to do his resignation letter and submit it to the HR Manager. I don’t know what happened next. Anyways, I should also thank him for a time he had given me opportunities and special treatment though I am kinda nasty to him.

On the job proper, sometimes, I was always tasked to go per department and announce some informations. Most of the employees were asking me that was beyond me knowledge. Thanks I can handle the situation because before the task, I keep on asking a lot of questions or better yet to tell that my ears are open to ideas.

I also handled the test administration, assessment and initial interview. At first I am kind of nervous and somewhat excited. I do the calling the applicants and set appointments for their test, plus to say that I knew that they are all degree holder, not only that but they are all registered and licensed in the profession they take. The test proper was boring. I was only instructing them what to do and what was the test all about; the rest, I am going to wait them finish their examination with a minimum of 3hours without any distractions to be made. I can’t survive in this kind of nature of administration- I thought.

By self-realization, I grow morally and maturely. I handled situation easily. I can interact with people whom I don’t know without any effort of practicing what to say, which I absolutely can’t do before.

From the entire things I learned from my on-the-job-training, I never neglected that I choose Coca-Cola Bottlers Philippines as my firm above any opt. The learning came inevitably or not, expected or not, I received it pleasurably and not counting it but by living it in within my future. I meet my career aim which is to have an essential experience about the nature of the work in the future that will contribute to my knowledge and skills.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

IS THIS AMAZING??

“ one of the amazing thing in this world is having someone fall in love with you whom you thought you never had a chance with…”

Monday, February 22, 2010

UNTIL I GET OVER HIM...

It was 11:31pm, I’m not yet done doing my report. And I am not yet on my mood to do such business... I am all alone here in the den listening to Japanese songs...


A blank moment... Feeling empty and dull not until I saw the chocolate given to me this morning by someone so as to remind me that happy moments went throughout this day.


Niece visit in Cuenca... Joyride in Batangas City... Pizzahut galore in SM Batangas... Makro and Wilcon Depot appliance shopping... Back in Cuenca and then Starbucks refreshments in Lipa...a clammy day and a very tiring day, isn’t it? It can’t be paid of because I’m with my whole family.


I should be very happy but what is this instead!


Cuenca...


Damn!


It can’t be... I try to escape from the reality that I am into him. I am over him, we’re finished. BUT it was just a thought.


“I can still feel the pain every time I saw you or every time I hear your name. Sometimes, I was thinking why am I hurt this way? I am not either upright to this means because from the very start, I dropped you down and we never be.”


Words I want to utter headed for him...


It was three months exactly from this day, Febuary 22, 2010 when I assumed that I like him, not long enough to say I already LOVE him...


I need someone who ails the same way I feel until I get over him...


How can I do to get rid him off my life when he is giving me more reasons to like him... what more can I say if what I am thinking is all against to what my heart is up beating??


I am feeling lost and don't know what to do....


Just give me ONE reason to HATE YOU!!


Only one reason is enough...


DORMANT TO VIGOROUS


After a long break of not writing and making an entry to my blogsite, here I am again Blogmates...

Another heart breaking and more corny entries will be read from your monitor screen...



And yes! I want your comments...