All along, I was sitting by the corridor, waiting for someone who would comfort me. I walked out from a circle of friends, suffocating. I am trying to revive my breath. Something’s gripping my heart; holding it tightly. My heart is making its effort to pump the blood to all of my system but it can’t. my heart would collapse if this is always the case. All has limitations; all has endings and I reached the maximum of it. I am done. My patience was gone…
Smile can ease the pain; it helped but was not enough. I always used to smile to anyone that looks familiar to me. I am friendly but none of them can listen what really my heart is up beating. No one knows what I really feel and what runs in my mind.
I am mad. For a reason by this time I know. I am carrying the world behind my back yet there’s no one to give me a hand and raise me up from my downfall. Sometimes, words aren’t enough to justify what a person really feels but actions cannot conceal what a person needs or has to convey.
Because of my anger, I busted already. I want to run away from everyone I knew. I want to escape from reality that I am only human who has right to express all the negativities I have. I don’t want to feel the anger but I can’t stop and find myself from doing so.
I saw a kid trying to win back her candy from another kid who forcedly got hers. Unfortunately, she didn’t get I back. Poor girl, because of a single candy, she screamed and cried. But then I wished I was a child again, that if I was injured and hurt, I can burst a cry without worrying about the people who can see me. At least the pain was relieved even a little bit.
By this time, I can’t take it anymore. Tears are rushing down through my cheeks. I am now crying. After a very long time of hiding the cyst of madness, I want to spell it out but words can’t cast out. Tears speaks for me….
