MAD? WHY NOT USE TO CRY?

All along, I was sitting by the corridor, waiting for someone who would comfort me. I walked out from a circle of friends, suffocating. I am trying to revive my breath. Something’s gripping my heart; holding it tightly. My heart is making its effort to pump the blood to all of my system but it can’t. my heart would collapse if this is always the case. All has limitations; all has endings and I reached the maximum of it. I am done. My patience was gone…




Smile can ease the pain; it helped but was not enough. I always used to smile to anyone that looks familiar to me. I am friendly but none of them can listen what really my heart is up beating. No one knows what I really feel and what runs in my mind.

I am mad. For a reason by this time I know. I am carrying the world behind my back yet there’s no one to give me a hand and raise me up from my downfall. Sometimes, words aren’t enough to justify what a person really feels but actions cannot conceal what a person needs or has to convey.


Because of my anger, I busted already. I want to run away from everyone I knew. I want to escape from reality that I am only human who has right to express all the negativities I have. I don’t want to feel the anger but I can’t stop and find myself from doing so.



I saw a kid trying to win back her candy from another kid who forcedly got hers. Unfortunately, she didn’t get I back. Poor girl, because of a single candy, she screamed and cried. But then I wished I was a child again, that if I was injured and hurt, I can burst a cry without worrying about the people who can see me. At least the pain was relieved even a little bit.





By this time, I can’t take it anymore. Tears are rushing down through my cheeks. I am now crying. After a very long time of hiding the cyst of madness, I want to spell it out but words can’t cast out. Tears speaks for me….

LIKE TO HATRED

One night, before I started writing this entry, I asked some of my friends how can they distinguish LIKE and LOVE. Most of them answered LIKE as setting of standards and LOVE as acceptance of his whole personality and yet disregarding all the negativities he have. When you like someone, you can answer why you like this certain person and definitely you can directly answer the reason of wanting him. Merely, there is a particular basis of liking him. In contrary with this is the term love. It is wherein you can’t answer why you like the person. You can’t identify the real definition of the system you are feeling that certainly arise.



Anyway, I just asked them because I am confused with the two terms. If you will just base it on a definition, the two are synonymous with each other but if you look beyond this, there is a great difference. Loving is liking but liking will never be loving.

Waking up early in the morning, eating breakfast, taking a bath, go to school, attending subjects, lunchtime, another batch of subjects, dismissal, a time for peers, dinner, time to go to sleep and another morning… These are usual things that I experience as a student. Isn’t this boring? Daily routines that always pass but with no real color and with no direction because what I knew is that I am taking a continuous circulation, which I can’t determine where it really started. I can’t find reasons to justify the means but I am tired of seeking for the answers.

One morning, I self- actualized. I think. I asked myself with what’s new with me and what am I as of now. Am I happy or am I sad? Or just mixed emotion I really don’t know why is this happening to me. I never imagined myself that I will come up to this point, a point I really feel empty and dull; thinking of anything except to the questions what should I do and what will happen next.



Lately, a guy who was once very close to me bothered me, and then suddenly a gap between the two of us emerged. I used to like him but this likeness become bitterness when I didn’t get what he really mean. He is doing such things at an instant, which is obviously unjustifiable especially for me because the ways he interacts with me is much different to the way he deals with the least of the group.

Admit or not, I was hurt. The unexplained gap was the root of all the pain I am inflicting but I don’t know who would be blamed for this. Is it me who first decided to put distance but never did because of the fear loosing a friend? Is it he to be blamed for acting such crazy things? Or is it the people around who keep on pairing the two of us and always saying that we might be a good couple and there’s something that binds us- FRIENDSHIP and LOVE.




Hell is the word love when you already endure the taste of being broken up. Hate is the word every time I see him. The likeness that should be bloom to love had turned into bitterness, into hatred that only me know the reason behind this feeling.

It may be hard to move on. They say that the easiest way to do is to forget the memories that you’ve been through with him, though in good and in bad times, but for me, it will not. Being with that person can help me surpass the feeling-HEARTACHES and GRIEVANCE. I am used to be with him, though hard, I will not think much of the distance that apart us rather than to take the gap which is more likely taking him out of my life, which is more difficult for me. Acceptance could also be an answer. It is only a matter of time and the time when you accept the reality, that’s the only you can say “I HAD FINALLY MOVED ON…”



“A day is a continuous circulation until dawn and midnight then another day”- I thought. I was wrong. It is not continuous because there is a break for everything. Time is continuously running but its up to you how to consume it properly and how will you divide your time from different perspective. If you’re tired, then stop. Rather stop than to push you wants then will end up to a very disliking chapter of you life- HATING YOURSELF FOR DOING SUCH THINGS…

UNKNOWN DIRECTION

Where am I? Where part of the world am I? I am in a path with no direction, a place which is unknown… I am encountering unfamiliar faces in an uncommon situation and uncertainties…


A man was hurriedly approaching towards my direction. He seems so sad and upset. He was saying something but I can’t understand what was is all about. A few seconds after he shared the reason of his despair, he hugged me tightly and I felt the drops of his tears upon my shoulder. The best thing I know I can do by that moment is to tap him at his back to relieve him from his grief.


And we became close at that scene. I helped him and finally he moved on from his last, who damned him and pick a new guy for his replacement. He takesnew life with new friend at his side, thick and thin. We became best friends and I thought it will be forever not until one day he moved against me. He’s acting like a cold flame whenever I am there, so I am.

It seems so easy for him to intrude my life and be a part of it then all of a sudden he will take me out of his life without giving me an explanation. I just hate him for being like that. He should know the feeling of being hanged up and the hurt of expecting that everything will turn out good or else will end up into a fantasy with happy finale. But I am still thinking that he might have a good reason of turning me away. I am trying to understand his situation and only a matter of time can answer what I want to know.


Yes. You can’t took away from me to look forward that one day he will come back again to me and confide everything he wants. I’m not expecting anymore that he will clarify the things that happened and why did he do it to me. Hence I will be happy with whatever we will have and what we will be. I just don’t want to loose a friend because it’s my fear- fear of losing the person I used to deal with ever since. I don’t want to be left alone in a dim with no one at my side like at this moment. I am in no where, I am in a direction I know but with no one. I am taking the flow of the aisle though I don’t know where it will go.




I wish someday I will meet SOMEONE who would be with me until the end point of the aisle or yet there’s someone waiting for me, a man who’s also dreaming that happy endings still exist not just a fantasy.

THE LOST HEIR

A very long time ago, in a little village somewhere in the western part of NIGERIA was a ruler named King Paul who had three wives namely: Queen Annette, Queen Princess and Queen Daryl.

SCENE 1 (at the hall… three wives are massaging King Paul)

King Paul: Eh-hem… Eh-hem… excuse me ladies, you know I’m not getting any younger. I need a son who will succeed my throne.
Q’ Princess: Babes, I know I will bear your son someday and he will be a good leader as you are… (In the left side, medyo mapapalakas ang masahe sa ka-excitan)
Q’ Annette: In your dreams Q’ Princess! I will have his child. I have a lot of plans for him, for this kingdom! We will make this land vast. (mapapalakas din ang masahe, si Paul medjo masasaktan na)
Q’ Daryl: Hey, the two of you! Why don’t you just shut up? Take it easy guys… My Honey can’t relax with what you are doing. You are frustrating him to give us a child… (massaging him at the back and will tapped his shoulder)
King Paul: It’s okay Hon’… I know the problem is within me… I did my best but my best wasn’t good enough… (singing)
Q’ Annette: At least you know… (binaba ng padabog ang kamay)
Q’ Princess: Yeah!… (ibababa din ang kamay)… It’s not our fault. It’s not our problem if you’re STERILE! Hahah…Sterile….
Q’ Annette: What a pathetic loser… hahaha…
(king Paul mapapahiya…Q’ Daryl mapapailing habang nilalait ng dalawa si Paul)
Q’ Daryl: Stop it! (to the two wives)… Don’t mind them honey… (to the king)
(the two ladies frown at Q’ Daryl)

While massaging, the adviser of the King was standing at the corner then was asked by King Paul…

King Paul: What do you think am I going to do my adviser? I am already old still I don’t have a child to succeed my throne.
Adviser: Your highness, an ifa priest named TATA live in the city. He is known for his magical works. He might be a help with your problem…
King Paul: Are you sure with that? (thinking)
Adviser: Yes, your majesty………
King Paul: Hmmmm, I see… Well then, there’s nothing wrong if we will try him. I’m desperate to have an heir…(sigh)… Okay, invite him to come over the palace!
Adviser: As you wish, your highness…


SCENE 2 (House of the ifa priest)

(adviser knocks on the door…)

Ifa priest: Yes, anything?
Adviser: Good afternoon Sir! The King ordered me…. (interupted)
Ifa priest: Whaaatt?? The King? You mean the King Paul? Oh my! Why? I never did a crime… I never… I never… (tensed)
Adviser: (babatukan si Tata) Relax… Calm down… Chill… OA ka eh… I am here to tell you that the King is inviting you to come over the palace!
Ifa priest: Ah… I see… Then what about?
Adviser: Everyone knows that the King doesn’t have a child to be his successor. Now, he is seeking your help… Can he count on you?
Ifa priest: Oh… Okay… Of course! It’s my honor to help in King’s name. Tomorrow, I will go to the palace together with the solution to the Kings’ problem…
Adviser: Good. Then we’ll expect you to be there…


SCENE 3 (at the hall)

King Paul: Good morning ifa priest! Maybe you already know the reason why I invited you, isn’t it?
Ifa priest: Yes, your highness… In fact I had answers to your dilemmas…
King Paul: Wow! That’s great! (jumped due to his excitement)
(three wives will enter the hall…)
Q’ Princess: Wait, wait, wait… What is the commotion all about? And Babes seems so happy and excited… Is there a soon to be social drinking in the palace? (lasing)
Q’ Daryl: Here we go again… the ALCOHOLIC QUEEN I ever seen…
Q’ Annette: Wait Sweetie… Who’s that guy? (refraining to the ifa priest) Is he one of the beggars asking for alms? Hahaha…
Q’ Daryl: Q’ Annette! Stop it! How unethical you are … Still he’s a visitor here in the palace…
Q’ Annette: Again and again… the crowned Ms. Perfect and Ms. Congeniality is speaking… so Q’ Princess, better for us to shut up… Right? (to K-anne)
Q’ Princess: Uh-huh… You’re right Q’ Annette! (then to Daryl) Are you trying to impress King Paul by you kindness? Actually you don’t have to. You got possessions…you got money, you got everything… We are already King Paul’s wives; still you are trying to win his heart…
Q’ Annette: Yeah! Don’t tell us you love King Paul more than we do…
Q’ Daryl: Yes I do… I love him… No doubt! I’m not trying to win him; I’m just simply being me… And please, don’t take this as a contest because King Paul is not a prize to be competed off… you know…
Q’ Annette: Whatever makes you looser!
Q’ Princess: Hahaha…
(almost forgot that they are in front of the King and the ifa priest…)
King Paul: Eh-hem… Excuse me ladies… Stop that argument… you three are like kids whose quarrelling for a single candy. Anyway, I want you to meet Tata, an ifa priest not a beggar and anything. (looking to the place of Q’ Annette) He has an answer to my bearings.
Q’ Annette: Ooops… Sorry… I’m just kidding… Its typical with me… Hope I didn’t offend you Sir! (to ifa priest)
Ifa priest: oh! Its okay… don’t mention it…
Q’ Princess: So, you’re the one! Hmmm.. What’s the gimmick? I mean, how could you help us?
Ifa priest: (showing the oracle to the king)… The oracle was saying that the king would have one son. The three of you (to the queens) would get pregnant after eating the food I prepared with potion. But neither of you would know who will bear the son until the delivery…

SCENE 4 (at the dinning)(on the other side of the room, the ifa priest is cooking and a potion and a blood of the king will be added up)

Q’ Daryl: Do you think it’s possible for us to become preggy by means of wizzardry??
Q’ Princess: Well, it’s up to you if you would believe it or not. As long as I will have the opportunity to bear the King’s child, I will be happy…
Q’ Annette: Me too… I wish I would bear the son…
Q’ Daryl: Hmmm, I’m excited and tensed… May I excuse for a while, I need to go to the powder room before the food was served…
(aalis si Daryl, maiiwan ung dalawa…the food will be served…)
Q’ Annette: Hey! Q’ Princess, since it is obviously seen that we both hate Q’ Daryl, why don’t we ate her food? She might loose the chance to bear Paul’s son…
Q’ Princess: Nice idea lady… (hurrying up to finish her dish) Let’s eat faster before Q’ Daryl shows up…
(after a couple of minutes, Daryl came…)
Q’ Annette & Q’ Princess: Burp!!!
Q’ Princess: Oops…. Sorry Q’ Daryl… We ate your supposed part… Its not our fault if ifa priest’s dish was savory and tasty…. Isn’t it?
Q’ Annette: Yeah! We’re sorry…. ( in a cruel manner)… Uhhm, Its okay if you missed the chance, you’re still young compare to us, darling…..
(Daryl sobbing due to dismay…)
Q’ Princess: Excuse me, its my turn to go to the powder’s room. Would you like to accompany me Q’ Annette??
Q’ Annette: Sure! Wait!
Q’ Princess: (while walking away)… Bye Q’ Daryl! Don’t mind it seriously, though you won’t bear the son, we know Paul still loves you…
(Q’ Daryl will be left alone with the leftovers)
Q’ Daryl: (crying)… Huhuhu… I know the king loves me but I lost the opportunity to bear a chld. (looking at the bowl…she get it and scraped it…)
Q’ Daryl: (while eating the leftovers, still crying) How mean the two queens are… But I don’t care to them, what I care is that I’m desperate of bearing a child…

Unknowingly, the ifa priest had seen the happenings. And in a snap of his fingers, the potion became effective…

SCENE 5 (at the lanai…)

Q’ Annette: This is the feeling of being pregnant! I can’t wait to see my baby boy…
Q’ Princess: How sure you are if that’s a boy? Huh? I’m pretty sure that I’m carrying the king’s heir….haha
Q’ Daryl: Eh-hem Ladies….
(Q’ Annette & Q’ Princess were suprised)
Q’ Princess: What happened Q’ Daryl? You’re bulging! I told you to go on diet… Look at you now… You like pregnant more than we do….
Q’ Daryl: (smiling) Yes, I am…
Q’ Annette: What do you mean you are?
Q’ Daryl: I’m Preggy!
Q’ Annette: What??? How could that be? We ate you’re part. You must lose the chance of being pregnant.
Q’ Princess: Tell us… It’s not King Paul’s right? You had another man…. (holding the arm of Daryl and forcing her to admit the white lies the made)
Q’ Annette: I will call the king… we will inform him about this matter…
Q’ Daryl: Excuse me, I’m pure! This is Paul’s child! Yeah, you ate my food but you didn’t finish it. I scraped the dishes to the fullest due to desperation. God is good and gave me a wonderful child.
Q’ Princess: Hmmm, Okay! Then we’ll wait who will deliver a baby boy!


SCENE 6 (at the delivery room)

Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess gave birth on the same day… King Paul is tensed and Q’ Daryl at his side, trying the king to calm down…

King Paul: (singing while dancing) I’m so excited, and I just can’t hide it… (habang naire ung dalawa…)

Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess (umiire… tipong naguunahan sa paglabas ng baby…)
Q’ Princess: Waahh!!!...huh huh huh…
Q’ Annette: Ahh… Huh huh huh… Hey Q’ Princess! Let’s bet, I will deliver the baby boy!
Q’ Princess: Sure! If I gave birth to his baby boy, you will be my slave for a week! Haha… Ouch… (nasaktan then to the mid-wife)
Mid-wife: What kind of people are you? You are in the deliverance of the child but both of you still able to bet!
Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess: Waahhh…
Mid-wife: Push… Push… Almost there… Com’ on… push!!
(then a cry of baby was heard)
Mid-wife: Q’ Annette made it first. It’s a baby… (interrupted)
Q’ Princess: Ooops… Oooops… Don’t mention it yet… Let me deliver first… (mid-wife, nilapag basta basta ang baby…)
Mid-wife: Yes, your majesty…as you wish! Then push… push….
Q’ Annette: Faster Q’ Princess! I’m bored here… Uhmmm… (will get her mp3 player then play it… cool isn’t it?)
Q’ Princess: Waahh!! Huh huh huh… Ahhhhhhh…..

Then the room ws filled with the cries of the babies…

SCENE 7 (at the room of Q’ Daryl)

King Paul: I can’t wait Hon’ for the baby… I’m excited!
Q’ Daryl: Me too! (delighted)
King Paul: I’m sure it’s a boy.. the two queens delivered our little princesses…
Q’ Daryl: I’ll name him JOSUEL… the soon to be king of this palace…
King Paul: Nice name huh… JOSUEL GLORI-SUMAYA..
Q’ Daryl: HoneEey… (sinasapo ang tiyan)
King Paul: Yes??
Q’ Daryl: Hon’, I think… Ahh…. I think he will come out!
King Paul: Whaaat?? (tensed) Wait, wait… Ah!... I don’t know what am I going to do…
Q’ Daryl: Ahhhhhh… Paul!!
(King Paul rushing everywhere, calling Annette’s and Princess’ name)
Q’ Princess: Whaat?? We’re asleep already..
King Paul: Hurry up! Daryl’s due date has come… I don’t know what to do… Please attend to her… Make sure that the child was safe!
Q’ Annette: Sure… Put it into our hands… (cruelly smiled)
(King Paul aalis)
Q’ Princess: I know that kind of smile! You had plans, isn’t it?
Q’ Annette: Absolutely
(then they went too Daryl’s room)!
Q’ Daryl: Waah… Huh huh huh…
Q’ Princess: Q’ Daryl… Push… push… Push your luck…
Q’ Daryl: Ahhhhhhhhh….. (then baby’s cry hushed after a little seconds)(Q’ Annette immediately shaded it to a piece of cloth and put stone for the replacement of the baby)(Daryl hihimatayin)(Mag-aapear sina Annette and Princess to show mission accomplish)
(King entered the room)
Q’ Annette: Oh, Paul! Don’t be shocked! Daryl had just delivered not a baby but a STONE!
Q’ Princess: What will we do now? No baby boy… No child at all…
King Paul: Noooo! (pasigaw then hihimatayin din then sasaluhin ng mga servants)
Q’ Princess: Babes!!
Q’ Annette: Sweetie! (sabay sisigaw at pupunta sa direction ni paul)
SCENE 8 (at the hall)

(pinagigitnaan ng two queens si paul)

King Paul: I cant believe with what have happened! I’am expecting that she will be the one to deliver my only son.
Q’Annette: Well sorry Sweetie… (hahawakan sa mukha ang queen) what is shocking to there is the stone.
Q’ Princess: Uh-huh.. I almost fainted when I saw the mystery. This the very first time I encountered like this. (holding hand)
Q’ Annette: What should you do to Q’ Daryl??
King Paul: I don’t know.. I really don’t know! (napapailing still cant believe with wat had happened)
Q’ Princess: She must be executed out of this place, Babes!
Q’ Annette: Sounds interesting Q’ Princess! Hahaha (cruelly laughed)
King Paul: (took a deep breath)Hmmm.. Adviser! Call Q’Daryl..
Adviser: Yes, your highness..
(papasok with the adviser)
Q’Daryl: The adviser told me that you called me.
King Paul: Yes, Q’daryl.. I made a tough decision… It wasn’t easy for me to say this… But…
Q’Daryl: Is this regarding with my son? How many times do I have to tell you that I gave birth to a child and not to a damn stone! Q’Annette,Q’Princess (babaling ang tingin) please tell the King what the truth is… (Then to the King again) I’m not lying… I even heard thy child before I fainted! Believe me…
Q’Annette: She’s lying! (mamamaywang at iismid)
King Paul: Sorry Daryl… My decision is final… (tutungo then point out of the palace) took her out of the palace…
Q’Daryl: Please don’t do this to me! Paul! Annette! Princess! N0! Let me go! (nagwawala)



SCENE 9 (In the Forest)

The baby was crying when a medicine man came while searching some herbs…

Baby: Waah.. waaah… wah…
Teggy as medicine man: (buggled with the cry) (he searched every where until he find the baby inside a piece of cloth)
Teggy: Poor child… Shh… don’t cry.. I’m here.. Who left you here? I’ll keep you as my child… I will raise you as my own… I’ll give you my name… Aldous! Aldous Kim Guevarra… Shh… Don’t cry…

Then 20 years had passed




SCENE 10 (in the palace)

King Paul: I’m dying! Uh-Uh… Uh… I Love You Goodbye… Uh… ( naghihingalo… then died…)
Q’Annnete & Q’Princess: Pauuul…(griefing)

The King passed away without an heir. The delegates were gathered at the hall as well as the Ifa Priest.

Adviser: Before the King died, he told me that he knows that he had a child. He asked me, when he died, I should call the Ifa Priest to know the truth… the whole truth but nothing but the truth…
Q’Princess: No! stop that foolishness… the truth is Q’Daryl gave birth to a stone…
Ifa Priest: No, your highness… (tatayo from his seat) he had a child. A son to be particular. My oracle revealed it. He was dispatched by that two wicked queens! (pointing to Annette and Princess)
Q’Annette: No…(iiling)
Ifa Priest: Yes! They threw him to the forest… the good thing there, the soon-to-be-king was found by a powerful medicine man who lived in the forest. He was raised into a fine gentleman.
Adviser: Well then…. In the name of the king, I am ordering to find the house of this man and thank him and invite to come here in the palace.

SCENE 11 (in the house of the medicine man)

(Knock on the door)

Delegate: Good Morning!
Aldous: Good Morning too Sir! Come in and have a seat… (papasukin)
Delegate: Thanks!
Aldous: Yes, anything! Ah.. you want to see my father? Kindly wait… I’ll just call him…(iiwan) (then tatawagin si Teggy)
Aldous: Father! Father! Someone’s looking for you… I think he is from the palace.
Teggy: What? (nagtataka) What do they want? I thought the King already died?
Aldous: Yeah! I was saddened and troubled by it… I don’t know why…(nalulungkot) He’s just a very good man…
(papasok sa room to see the visitor)
(tatayo ang Delegate)
Delegate: Good Morning!
Teggy: Oh… Good Morning… Have a seat (uupo) What can I do for you?
Delegate: Okay, I’ll go straight to the point. I am her for the prince…
Aldous: The prince??
Delegate: Yes! You heard it right…
Teggy: If you’re searching for the prince, you came at the wrong place!
Aldous: Besides, how come would the soon-to-be-king be in this kind of place? He must be in the palace taking all the pleasures in life he wants…
Delegate: Supposedly! (to Aldous) but because of the wickedness of Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess, the prince took the hardships on this kind of living… (then turn head to Teggy) The abandoned baby you found under the tree, wrapped in cotton cloth, is the prince I am referring… (to Aldous again)-> You are the missing PRINCE JOSUEL…
Teggy: I named him as ALDOUS KIM…
Delegate: Whatever the name is, still he is the soon-to-be-king of the village…
Aldous: I am the lost prince… (can’t believe)
Teggy: This only mean I will never live with my son anymore, I mean with the prince..
Aldous: No! I won’t allow it father… (tatayo to show disagreement) I thank you for raising me up into a fine guy ant if they won’t let me be with you in the palace, I won’t accept the throne…
Delegate: Eh-hem, excuse me your highness! That’s one of the reason why they asked me to go here… they want you and the medicine man to move there and live in the palace gallantly!
Teggy: Uhhh… (little bit cry) I thought the will get you away from me… huhu… (magaakap si Aldous and Teggy)

SCENE 12 (at the palace)

(before the coronation)
Aldous: Adviser…
Adviser: Your highness…
Aldous: Can you tell me about my mother? How come that she is not around?
Adviser: Oh… the Q’ Daryl… Q’ Daryl is the name of your mother… She is the youngest among the three wives of King Paul and because of it, Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess are envious of of her. When they got pregnant and gave birth to a girl, they envied more to your mother… King Paul pays more attention to her before the delivery. On her due date, the two queens attended her. The wicked queens took you away and replaced a stone and alarmed it. Due to it, the king decided to banish her from the village.
Aldous: Ah… I see… (napapailing habang hawak ang baba) I want you to look for my mother. I want her to be present in my coronation.
Adviser: The ifa priest could help us to locate where your mother… Do you want me to call him?
Aldous: Please… Right away…
(Adviser will bow head before leaving)
(Adviser together with the ifa priest)
Aldous: Do you know where my mother is?
Ifa priest: Your majesty, the oracle advised that every woman should cook a soup and from the taste, you can identify who your mother is… (Aldous ay tatayo)
Aldous: Adviser! Announce it to the whole village… I want the response immediately…
Adviser: Yes, your highness…

The announcement of the soon-to-be-king had reached the ears of the villagers. Grand preparation began in every home. Every woman cooked the best soup she had cooked in her whole life. A thousand and one of ingredients and all manner of spices went into their pot except for one pot, the one belonging to the village outcast- DARYL. She lived in a little shack at the edge of the village and she had no money to buy ingredients for a pot of soup. She herself lived on fruits and vegetables that picked from her daily forages into the forest. When it was time for every woman to assemble in the market square, she placed what vegestables she could get into a pot with some water.

(The women are setting the dishes) (Daryl-rugged look)

The aroma around the market square was overwhelmed. There were miles of sizzling, delicious pots of soup. When the king-to-be arrived…

(tatahimik ang lahat) (Aldous will taste each and every soup and he refused it until he reached the last person…)

Aldous: Hmmm… She is… She is my mother! (he burst and proclaiming it to all)

Daryl: Yes, I am your mother… I am Q’ Daryl Sumaya… And I am longing for you son… I want nobody, nobody but you…

(All will sing and dance Nobody of Wonder Girls)
(Then Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess will be chased by people…)

Q’ Annette and Q’ Princess: Waaahhh!!!!


THE END

..STILL, I AM BLEEDING…

…What’s the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away??

…It’s like waiting for something to happen but in the end, you will be left hanging and expecting. Yes, I believe that the easiest way to hurt yourself is to EXPECT but I found myself doing it.

How pathetic I am… I know…

..A blood flowing with running water as tears are rushing down through my cheeks because of the deep pain in feeling caused by the cut in my hand. I am thinking what if it won’t stop bleeding… who would be blamed for this??

..As I look at the broken pieces of mirror on the ground, I found myself crying not for the fact that I am physically wounded. There’s inside me that is scourging my heart. I don’t know how… I don’t know why…

..Before, whenever I see someone crying because of this damn LOVE, I’m always asking why is it they have to enter into a relationship where they can’t able to manage it. They always end up crying… feeling all alone though friends are saying that they are always there for you… but there’s something missing within you… A missing part that can’t be filled by someone who cheers and lightens you up…

..Because of that, I am now afraid to love. I am afraid to feel what they had felt. I see how they cried hard, how misserable they are and how difficult for them to move on. But the big BUT there is that LOVE is inevitable. No matter how you control it or stop yourself from doing so, a certain feeling will surely arise. Or even you will wake up one morning seeing yourself falling in love unknowingly assuming that it is just a petty infatuation.

..Now, I am in great dilemma. I am confused with what I am feeling and I hate it. I don’t like the feeling anymore especially when you’re not sure if he is also into you. And its thougher when you thought he likes you too but being naturally sweet is one of his personalities.

..I tried to move against him and put a gap between the two of us even detachment is hard to do but they say that it will be the foolest act I ever thought. They gave me two options: to tell him about it or to keep it for sake of our friendship.

..It would be unfair for him if I’ll put a gap. Times a precious thing to waste but friends are more precious. I still think of it. Its hard for me to carry this out but maybe this is the right choice. Besides, I don’t want to waste the closeness we shared.



..Some of our friends can’t hide their thoughts and simply say what they want about us not knowing that I am tormenting with what they are doing. They know that I am not a typical girl who is a quick-tempered one but all of us has boundaries. I’m already tired of pleasing them to stop making issues about us. But they weren’t listening!

..As days pass by, I hate the manner he is showing. It is obviously seen that the way he interact with me is very much different the way I am used to. Is he the one putting the SPACE between us? What’s the reason behind it? Is he experiencing the awkwardness I felt? But why? Is he guilty of something? If not, why is he doing this? Was it easy for him to ignore this kind of arrangement all of a sudden? What about us? What will happen next?

..Lot of questions, isn’t it? I’d like to heard the answers but surely I will be troubled with it. Better not to…

..But doesn’t he think of our FRIENDSHIP? He’s not being fair to me. He’s a big damn COWARD. Sometimes, I imagine seeing myself standing before him, having a confrontation with what’s the real score between the two of us, but I still have no guts to do it. And I will never have.

..Love came along unexpectedly between us..

Why can’t it be? Why can’t it be the two of us…
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends..
You came along at the wrong place at the wrong time or was it me..

..”Why Can’t It Be?” by 3rd Avenue… Are you familiar with the song? That’s the song they intended to us. I love the song because its one of my favorites. Now, whenever I heard this song, he is the one that popped in my mind.

..Is it a one-sided feeling? Or on both parties? I know I’m not of his kind. And I am not assuming. We can’t be lovers because we are only destined to be friends as what the song tries to intend.

..I never had a commitment but I already feel broken like the mirror on the ground I mentioned previously. A broken mirror that can’t never be back on its original smooth shape. No matter you gave your best shot to glue the pieces of it, there are still lines that leave marks. Like with the wound in my hand, despite the fact that the cut will heal, it will still leaves a scar that blemishes the skin.

..Now, I am searching myself because I am in a dream. And hopefully, there’s someone who would lend a hand to wake me up in this foolishness. Someone who would help me to carry this out. Someone who would take care of my heart and not let anyone hurt me as much as I am right now. A name who would fix me, at least try to stick the broken pieces that was scattered and do his best to secure my heart no matter what happen.

Should I Smile Because We’re Friends or Should I Cry Because That’s All What We Have?

…I’ve never missed anyone as much as I am missing you right now...

…I never thought I would need someone like you as much I do right now…

…but more than anything, I just want to call you mine…

I LOVE YOU!

…did that mean anything to you??

…all I have left is a broken heart and lost and forgotten memories…

…you walked out of my life, left me with nothing but I’ve settled with less..

..still waiting here on my never ending dream…

…there’s a girl in my mirror, she look so sad..

…so this is what they call teenage love they didn’t mention the heartbreak or the tears and the sleepless nights..

..Shall I smile because we’re friends or cry because that’s all we will ever be?

I WANT MORE!

I'm so close yet so far…

Everything I see reminds me of you, just can’t it back the way it used to be..

If only you could have loved me that I little bit more, may be you would have tried to keep us together then but I’ve got to remember is you’ve moved on..

Once upon a time, I was fallin’ in love now I’m only fallin’ apart and I am sorry.. Sorry for thinking I even had a chance… I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy asking him to love me…

That’s not the way it should be…

Since you left, you’ve changed but I still love the new you…

I MISS YOU!

They say distance makes the heart grow further that’s the thing I need at least at the moment…

You took my heart ripped into pieces and now left me to fix it…

I thought I was your Cinderella.. you made love seem so simple but why did you have to make the heartbreak so hard??

The day I get over you is when pigs can fly..its impossible…

My heart is still bleeding because of you…

I had my hopes to high and feelings to strong to think there could ever be a me and you…

I dropped a tear into the ocean the day I find it is when I’’ stop loving you be..

Fate brings people together, it just torn me apart..

I knew love was because of you but I also learnt the meaning of “HEARTBROKEN”

Thinking of you makes my heart skip a beat..

I WANT YOU BACK!

A Sudden Accident

I had just recapped what had happened to me last August 08, 2009. A sudden accident had occurred. Not only once but twice...

It was afternoon, from school going to Lipa, we are riding in a jeepney when suddenly the driver had a full impact brake. He hitted a boy riding in his bicycle. Though not the fault of the driver, he sends the boy to the nearby hospital in Lipa. he almost forgot that he still have three passengers. Fortunately, none of us was hurt. Only the poor boy who was eranded to buy something was hurt and wounded.

When we we're dropped in the hospital, I asked my friend, Precious, if she could go with me to SM or Robinsons for me to buy a backpack to me used on the following Monday. It was just one of the reasons. There's something inside me that I can't explain why I still don't want to go home. But she refused and had no choice but to go all alone.

Since I was all by myself, I decided not to go along. I jumped in the jeepney with a signboard LEMERY. Couple of minutes had passed before the jeepney was fully loaded.

While taking the road, chitchats, laughs, murmur and a hardcore music enclosed the mobile. I take a nap when a splash of car was heard.

I opened my eyes and just realized that the jeepney we're riding had crashed and banged the cement post. Many happening had happened and I never care about it. What I want is to go home and take a rest.

Passengers we're keep on talking about the incident. Uncontrollable brake, bang on the post, crashed jeepney and so... Until I reached my destination. They never realized how important life is... how short it is... how should they treasure it and never waste time in a senseless matters. And above all, they should thank God that they're still alive and kicking, living in a wonderful world we live in.

When Love Has Gone…

It doesn’t matter who called it first; ending a relationship, no matter how long or short it lasted, is always hard to do. Your mind will always go over every element that made up relationship in the quest to find out exactly what went wrong between you and the girl you thought was MS. RIGHT-FOR-YOU and the process can very painful, even if she was the one who said goodbye first.

The hurt that you may be feeling with regards the break up can get even worse once you find out that she who was once the girl in your life has begun to see someone else. That would get you start questioning yourself as to why you have not yet moved on when she obviously has done so.

If this happens to you, you will need to deal with the reality that everything is finally over between the two of you, even if you are not exactly ready to move on. you do not necessarily have to find someone to replace her just yet; just do something that will help ease blow of the news.

The first thing you need to do is to stop comparing yourself with your ex’s new squeeze. Stop asking yourself questions like “Is he cooler or cuter than me?” or “Does she love him more than she loved me?” or “What is he doing that makes her happy, a lot happier than I ever made her?” These questions will only make you go spiraling down in despair. Remember that whatever happened between you and you ex, you broke up because the two of you are not compatible enough to be able to bridge the gap created by whatever went wrong. The two of you are just not a good match.

Another thing you should do is to make sure that your paths will not cross with her and her new squeeze. if you have to change your daily routine, like the route going to your room, then do not hesitate to do so. Do not ask your friends for any news about her and tell them as well that you do not want to hear anything about whatever is going on with her at the moment out of your sight; she gets out of your mind.

Be polite and do not snob them even if you do manage to bump into her and her new boyfriend. Smile and say “hi” and then walk away. You do not need to feel embarrassed or to think you are pathetic, even if the sight of them fills you with humiliation. Being civil to them will make her think that you are okay and actually fill yourself with confidence.

Lastly, enjoy this time of being alone. More often than not, men in relationships tend to set aside some of the things they enjoy in order to make room for a goal in their lives. Being alone is as great a time as any to reconnect with your interest and rediscover who you are. Take this time to spoil yourself and enjoy being just you not as someboby else’s BOY.